HAHA i look dumb in the pic up there & my hair looks short -..- okay nevermind,forget bout it. Hair will grow hair will grow hahaha. Im finding a way to update both my tumblr & (this blog). Okay so today I wasnt in the mood for anything. I was kinda pissed at everyone & everything. But of course hahaha I was covering my face w smiles & everything. And yeah that explains why this post is so fake hu hu hu ^^ Okay,band will start tmr. OMGWTH! I thought got break a long long break,you guys should hv a rest! OKAAAAAY,yeah right. We only rested for 1 week

Tmr theres the Sports Carnival thingy. Im so not lookin forward to it. Obviously,its in school. Another thing,my mom is a big kepo. She told me that she was listening to 1 sec2 boys talking bout a girl in the mrt. She just said " The boy so katek ayam & still can announce to the world that he like a girl name Nurul". Wtf hahaha,now my brother just told my mom that his friend stalk girls. And believe it or not his only sec1 -..- Okay bye yo i wanna eat again haha

Heh sorry I kinda dont come here anymore. i moving to tumblr soon kay byebye

Haha yes i stand like that in the mrt all the time. Look at my hair in the pic,so long. But now all being chopped off. My ponytail became a pigtail haha yes my fault cos I itchy backside wanna cut. Okay these few days was okay,i guess.

Monday - Home > Sch > Band > Home

Tuesday - Home > Sch > Went to Jp w Shud,Yanny & Raudha > Met E & W at Yewt > Home

HAHA today - Home > Walked to sch w Saiyuan,Keechong,Minen & Joanne > Walked back home hahahahahahaha

Oh another thing,

To you again : All your pictures are in my computer. I dont even know I deleted some,oh I think cos I needed to clear out my mmr memory cos not enough space. I know you dont treat me as a friend okay then you can treat me as a wall. Looking back at some of my posts,I just realised most of my posts dont refer to you. Theres only 2 that did. The otherssssss....I was refering to someone else. Okay thank u

Hey this is to you :

Damn you type so long. Firstly,i have alot going through my mind & Im really very stressed bout everything now. Do you know how much pressure is on me ? I have to go for band almost everyday & everytime I go the more stress I get. Do you think its easy to get a gold for SIBF ? I know I kinda judge you. But cmon give me a break,I tried to turn everything around if you notice but sadly I couldnt. If you think that not being friends with me will make you feel better than okay Im not saying anything. I need to be focus in something else now & I dont need anymore distractions. Im not covering anything that im doing now. Push all the blame on me,i deserve it seriously. Hate me forever,dont talk to me,be friends with others I kinda need that punishment.


Your killing me inside do you know that ? And when I step on stage,ready to perform my solo,i'll freak out & screw up cos I know somebody is not supporting me for the rest of my life. Im not ruining your life,it will soon be better cos im not there anymore. It kinda hurts,im gettin ugly dark circles under my eyes for crying late at night these past days. You know why I talk to you ? Cos I felt wrong & uncertained of where am i standing in my life. I was brought up differently,i dont know whats the feeling of needin to earn someones trust and respect towards you. You need to hear me out. You need to understand,I may get angry at you but the next day i try to make it go away.


And please about the memory card,I've forgotten about it. I thought problem solved but you brought it back up. I mean why? And huh about deleting your photos ? What I delete your photos ? That part I seriously dont understand. Suddenly about photos being deleted ? Huh ?


I will never stop fightin w you ? Just wait another 2 years and i'll be out of your life for good. You dont have to see my stupid face in sch anymore. You'll be moving on & i'll be moving on too. You can forget about me. I know Im a bitch so just delete me from your life. You dont need bitches in your life,your better off w'out bitches. And im sorry if I made you fight w J,you think I dont feel the guilt ? Guilty is my middle name now. Guilt are running thru my veins. Im super guilty right now. Everyday i try to smile & forget everything thats happening cos I got even bigger things to worry about. And sorry for blaming you ,im kinda heartbroken about the things happening to my life. I dont wanna loose another family member,im stressed out. My uncle passed away last year & I dont want anything tragic happening to me again.


I dont tell you about whats gg on in my family bcause i dont want anyone to know. I bet if you knew,you'll understand why am I feeling this way,why do i keep running away from my feelings & all those other things. Okay bye

Kinda feeling stress lately. Well,alot of things has been going thru my mind. First thing,SIBF is killing me,im serious. And blablablablablablabla. Im so freakin nervous for sibf & believe it or not im shaking right now. Okay thats all I wanna sleep now bye

Kay just now I realised among my friends,theres only some who I can trust. That I can tell them anything no matter what. Some of my friends are two-faced biches & backstabbers. I used to fight alot w Yus but now we're like so close. Ya la what to do I see her face most of the time mahh hahahaha jk jk yeah shes awesome I mean really :D Love ya soff. Oh like Ros too but she has always stood by me eventhough I was always in the wrong ,love yaa. And who said guys cant be trusted ? I've been so close to Wawan & Eirfan. They can be trusted,love you gays too. And farris the stupid ball gazer,him too. No matter how annoying he is,his still the best :D


Today : Sch > Stay-back > Yewt w E & W > Lib w E,W & H > Home

Im so so so so so so so tired now. Just came back home from band. For you guys to know,band will end at 9.30pm fuish balek malam. Competition is drawing near & I keep thinking that i cant do it. Or like what if I couldnt play on that day ? Most people say,dont be nervous you tend to screw up. But HELL I'll definitely be nervous,I only got 1 chance on that freakin stage & sadly theres no turning back at this point of time ):

After band,went to LotOne to eat w Jiongh,Saiyuan,Keechong & Min en. Complete jokers,theres I was starin into space and then I heard somebody singing hahahahaha omg. This dude wait this half-dude was singing " Last christmas I gave you my heart but the very next day you gave away...........". Sumpah kelaka gile hahaha kay now i fckin boooored. Haha bye I wanna sleep & eat

Sorry I kinda need to let out my anger here. Sumpah now I very angry. Its about a friend of mine. Fui,I know you want to know. But haha no can do Im not revealing the name. Okay seriously ? Were you there when I need you ? No. Kau cume kesahkan pasal diri kau tu. How long have we been friends ? And I dont understand you still. I dont like being friends w you. Cos I know your fake. Freaking fake. Sometimes idk if I should tell you anything cos you cant be trusted. I was always the one whom you tell your f problems too but have you ever cared about mine ? Uhh,dont you realise that im avoidin you ? But too bad i cant but i am trying to. Well fuck you

I was freakin childish in sch today haha idk why. I was eating twisties & oreos all over sch. Omg wtf I forgotten that i got a tumblr account nevermind later I update. Somebody said that my posts all merepek2 haha abeh asl kau bace bodo ? Okay,Im kinda sick of layaning somebodys shit. Might as well you control your shit thats comin out of ass. Its easier that way. Shit thrs band tmr oh no booooooring.


Most people I know are real unlike you. Your different,your freakin fake. And to somebody else,stop irritating the hell out of me. You think its very funny ah? Omg get yourself a life. Stop saying that I keep on picking on people. Hello,im straight-forward. This is why im not close to you. You piss me off everytime okay thank u